Back to Square

Well, nothing much has changed... Only 4 'glorious' years have passed down the river of my life... But as I type these words in the secrecy of the night, I realise that I have managed to remain quite the same, despite the ‘safari-ride’ I had in the years between. Otherwise, where will I be able to find the 'hunger' or whatever you call it to put this piece together, ignoring the comfort of this night.

Coming back to the point, now I find myself at the same spot from where it had all begun. Yes, obviously with a few differences here and there...

Let’s take a look at them. Well, I will take a look. Would you be my guest? To put forward, the most important one of these (changes) is going to be the little bit of platform that I have managed to put my feet on. Otherwise, there's not much of a difference between that night in the hostel, when I had been composing the piece titled – ‘Tottering, that’s the word…’ and tonight. Yes, of course, that night, it was a bit early, not as late as 4:30 am. So what can you derive from that? Yes, I have grown insomniac. But mind you, insomniac, only when the heart desires it... But as I always maintain, my heart does play a very important role in my life, and it really gets the better of my mind to keep this soul awake in most of the cases.

Yeah, so what was I talking about? Yeah, the little bit of differences between the Sayan Dey of those times and the Sayan Dey, whom I have managed to 'grow' into. A big LOL for using the word 'grow' (self-acclaimed). Let's not divert further. Hahaha... The second difference that I can readily spot is the gadget on my hand. Long gone are the days of my old Nokia 3120 Classic, which used to be the medium for those blog posts, I used to make from the dungeons of my hostel. A sleek Nokia Lumia 520 is giving me company tonight and is aiding me immensely with its inbuilt MS Office Application, as I compose this post...

The third difference has to be the location, obviously... Yeah, those posts were used to be composed in Chennai, where life was uncertain, when appearing for a Maths Cycle Test, used to give me so much of the shivers, that I had to pour my heart out into those posts. But now, here I am in Kolkata, and yes life is comparatively a bit certain here. But not ensured obviously.

And what else, in the Difference column? Well, let's see! Yeah, I don't have a Cycle Test tomorrow, or the day or the week after... I have meetings to attend, calls to take, assignments to complete and deadlines to meet. To put it in one sentence, I am not a student anymore... I am a techie now, an IT labour, working in what people call the 'glamorous' Corporate World...

There goes the ‘Difference’ Section... Other than these four, believe me, nothing much has changed...

Now, coming to the ‘Similarities’, if I start to have a look, I will find they are so aplenty, that I cannot make them fit into a single section, like I have done for the ‘Differences’. I will try, here, to have a look at some of the similarities, some of the personal ones, may be.

So, here they are. Those nights, when I used to compose my posts, the only source of light that would be present in my hostel room would be that from the night-lamp... Still, today as I am typing this post, I take a look away from my cell phone and in the void of the pitch black of this night, the night-lamp just seems to be telling, whatever it is, I am going to be right there with you, giving you all the light that you may need... So, basically what I meant by the above comparison is that the posts were composed at night during those days and is being continued the same way at the same time of the day or rather night, should I say... I don't know but night just helps me... To bring out everything that I seem to have...

Similarity, right? Yeah, one more! I had the time to compose all of those and luckily of late, I have managed to take some time out to pay devotion to this hobby of mine, because that is what I think it deserves. So yeah, no thinking, no wondering... Just got to write, because I know that's the way it should be.

Yeah, the support, inspiring me! How can I forget that? In the years that have passed in between, with me being away from my writing and all, this was one thing that I did seek so much but not to much avail... Doubts were made to creep in my mind as to the way it really should be... But yeah, that was at an alien place, in a different timeline with different people around... But here now, back to my city, I have realised that I haven't lost that much, believe me. In fact, I have gained so much. The support which I had, initially, has only increased manifold, adding to this new zeal of reopening this blog of mine. By support, I mean the support of you people, my friends, who have always stood by me and given me everything I have ever needed. So yeah, this support truly helps and really inspires me to do so much more. So yeah, the support behind me, has not changed, but has only got better and stronger!

And here comes the last similarity! Any guesses on this one? Yeah? Well, not quite there, right? OK, it has to be me, myself and everything associated with me, Sayan Dey. Believe me guys, I have not changed. The same old guy, only in a more colourful and greater environment.

So, that’s it here! It’s me, back to the square. A new beginning beckons, a greater prospect glistening in the horizon.

Thank you, guys, for being so kind, as to go through the entirety of this post, because even I know it was boring. Wasn't it? Do keep coming back, here. I will really try to make up with my next post, as I have found something interesting to write about. Believe me! Cheers!

A Revamped Look

Well, so much to write and so much to tell. But that's not how you begin a post on your blog. Do you? Well, no! But here, I am diverting from the path. Well, really what to do? I have been so wanting to make a restart to writing these posts of mine. But here goes my usual excuse - not being able to get the things in order to make my blog a more happening place. But here I am, back once again (God knows how many a time I have come and gone).
Enough of that! Getting back to the main thing. My new post! Really, hasn't a lot changed from the last time that I had made a post on this blog (sorry the old blog of mine, here). Yeah, I am asking myself, and obviously the answer is an affirmative. Good! But yes, the change is with respect to the last time I had made a post here, not those initial days of my blogging. Getting confused? Got to be, right! Well, you can complain I am an 'ever-confused' person. But hey, that's the way I am. OK, OK, enough! Stopping it! Really look at me! Coming back, if you are really confused about what I have written about my change, my next post here, will hopefully clear it for you...
Well, I was really itching to get back to the writing ways. This has always been a passion which I have closely followed and really I had got away from it for some reasons really not worth it! However, time to shelve everything off and move it in the direction that it really deserves.
I have observed one thing over the years I have been away from writing. Well, it is that I really have and am inclined to make an opinion on the whereabouts of everything that grab my attention, apart from the phases of my life and my family which has been of concern to me forever. So, I have decided to give a little jig! Yeah jig! LOL! I thought why not post about really anything which I find interesting, apart from the obvious posts about my own life. Sounds cool? Not really hot (bad), right? Hahaha... Let's see! This is a small plan that I have got for my posts here and I really hope that I can do justice to it. Pray for me guys!
What else? Well, nothing much! First real post in a long time! Better not elaborate it too much. Got to keep you guys interested. Hope I can do it.
So, there it goes. A revamped blog, a changed blogger, a new idea... Let's see how the mix goes. Thank you guys for taking the time out to have a read. Stay blessed!

Coming of Age...

Moving on from my previous account, welcome to 'My New Abode'. Yes, that's what I have called my new space in this virtual world. An abode, a shelter where I can seek refuge to my heart's content, where Security is the order of the day, where Peace is the Ultimatum... Welcome to 'My New Abode'... Hoping to present before you all a better self, a better picture...

However, if you do want to go through my previous posts, you can always hit my previous blog... Oh, and the URL is http://sayandeylive.blogspot.in/

Once again thank you all. Hoping to bring to you all, my first real post in 'My New Abode', real soon...

Tottering, that's the word...

Really, coming back to Chennai, I did not expect even in my worst nightmares, that it was going to be so tough, managing the situation here. By situation, I mean the load of studies that were already discussed in the college, before the Pongal holidays, when I was enjoying back at Kolkata.

The situation, here, is quite hostile. Competition has already begun, and mind you, in this fierce battle, nobody is going to leave an inch unfought, the objective being to top the 2nd Semester. So you can understand that my situation is almost like a scape-goat!

My situation, at this moment is really very critical; tomorrow I have my Maths Surprise Test and the syllabus constitutes of a lot of stuffs that were taught, when I had not started attending the classes. To make the situation worse, the Test is on Integral Calculus, in which I am not good at by any stretch of imagination. So you can jolly well understand my position.

You must be thinking then if I am in such a mess, why am I blogging now. The reason is that I wish to share this crisis with you all, so that it can give me some kind of support, which I need, very badly need!

Clear evidence of Ghost in Chennai

Hey Guys! This is a very interesting account which I came across during my 1st semester in Chennai, which I would like to share with you all. This is a true story with some supernatural facts which are sure to give you some shiver… Go through this article and don’t forget to post your comments…

Clear evidence of Ghost in Chennai

This is the true story of a young college girl who passed away last month in Chennai. Her name was Priya. She was hit by a lorry. She has a boyfriend named Shankar. Both of them were true lovers. They spent the best part of the day on the phone. You could never have seen Priya without her mobile phone.

In fact she had recently changed her phone from Vodafone to Airtel, so both of them could be on the same network, and save on the cost. She spent half of the day talking with Shankar. Priya's family knew about their relationship. Shankar is also very close to Priya's family. Before she passed away she always told her friends "If I pass away please burn my cell phone along with me." She also said the same thing to her parents.

After she died in the accident, people could not carry her body; somehow they could not move it. Even I was there at the scene. A lot of them tried to do so but still couldn’t, the result was still the same. Eventually, they called a person who somebody knew, a fellow who could supposedly speak with the soul of dead person. When he came, he looked at her body, took a stick from somewhere and started speaking to himself slowly.

After a few minutes, he said "this girl misses something here". Then her friends told that person about her intentions to burn her phone along with her. He then opened the grave box and placed her phone and SIM card inside the casket. Immediately after that, when they tried to carry the body it

could be moved and they carried it into the van easily. All of us were shocked.

Priya's parents did not inform Shankar that Priya had passed away. After 2 weeks Shankar called Priya's mom. Shankar:...."Attai, I'm coming home today. Cook something nice for me.

Don’t tell Priya that I'm coming home today, I wanna surprise her." Her mother replied..... "You come home first, I wanna tell you something very important." After he came, they told him the truth about Priya.

Shankar obviously thought that they were playing a fool. He broke into laughter and said "Please don't try to fool me - tell Priya to come out, I have a gift for her. Please stop this nonsense." Seeing that he was not going to believe them easily, they showed him the original death certificate. (Shankar now started to sweat and mumble terribly)

He said... "It can’t be true. We spoke yesterday. She still calls me. Shankar was shaking. Suddenly, Shankar's phone rang. "See this is from

Priya, see this..." he showed the phone to Priya's family. All of them told him to answer. He talked using the loudspeaker mode. All of them heard the conversation. Loud and clear, no cross lines, no humming. It was the actual voice of Priya & there was no way others could use her SIM card since it was nailed inside the grave box. This time the family and Shankar were shocked beyond belief. A friend of Priya's again suggested that they ask for the advice of the

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THE BIRTH OF HOPE, THE REBIRTH OF BELIEF...

May 20th, 2008, a memorable day in my life - memorable..., well, that is not quite the word, perhaps you can call it a day which was truly remarkable, a day which deserves to be sculpted on one's 'memory-rock'. You must be wondering what really happened that day. To end the suspense, let me bring back to your minds, the fact that it was on that very day, the results for Higher Secondary Examination 2008 were declared. It was an opportunity for a lot of students like me to prove themselves right and to prove 'some others' wrong. The night before, I hardly got any sleep, as tension, like always, had got the better of me. I had set a target on my mind and I knew that if all went right, it would not be too difficult for me to reach that target, the target being to score 350 out of 500. But deep inside my heart, there was a dream, an unfulfilled dream - to get 75% i.e. Star Marks in the Aggregate. But that was surely going to be difficult.

Results were announced on the time as mentioned earlier and I stayed glued to the television-set to catch the press-conference after the declaration of the results. After the declaration, I checked my result on the SMS service, to find only that I had passed - no marks no nothing. Then I called up one of my friends to ask him to check my results online as he had the internet connection at home. He also gave me the news that I had passed, and that was the only part of result that was being displayed on the websites. My marks were not yet known. Thus, I realized that I will only get to know my marks, once and only I reach school to collect my mark-sheet.

It was a journey full of anxiety, nerves that I and mom had on our way to school. Oh, what tension! On reaching school, I got the news from one of my class-mates that I had scored the highest marks in Computer Science. But I could hardly believe that, as the Computer Science exam had not gone as smoothly as expected and I didn't even think of coming close to the highest marks which was surely to be obtained by someone else.

Though I could hardly believe that I could get the highest marks in Computer Science, I was really hoping that I get it. The adrenaline was pumping out at the thought of obtaining the mark-sheet within a few minutes and seeing for myself how I had fared.

We all settled in the classroom just adjacent to the Principal Sir's office and the news was that we had to go to the office in a queue and collect our mark-sheets. I stood in the queue and waited for my call. It was a long wait which was not going to end easily. Behind me were most of my friends. Fear was increasing manifold, more so because my mom was waiting back at the classroom, expecting that her 'good-for-nothing' son would 'finally' bring some good news back.

My call finally came and I went straight to collect the mark-sheet without showing any nerve. I collected the mark-sheet from our Bengali Ma'am, who just after taking a quick glance on my mark-sheet told me that my Maths needed to be better. Oh, what a moment it was! Hard to describe! I got my first touches on my mark-sheet.

Getting my mark-sheet, I just shot a quick glance on the Aggregate Column of all the subjects. But since the report had come that my Maths needed to be better, I could not help looking at my score in Maths. Oh, it was really bad! It really needed to be better. But it was not meant to be like this. I had gone through some rigorous practice of Maths before the exam. Yes, I admit that I had not appeared for the best Maths paper, in H.S., but the marks really a bit too low. However, I quickly turned my attention towards the other subjects to see how I had fared in them.

Oh, it was a relief to see that the marks had not come too bad. 60 in Bengali was really hard to believe for me, as I had never obtained such marks in Bengali. Clearly, I had the luck on my side this time. But I was a bit down seeing my English marks. It was only 75. Well, to be honest, I had expected LETTER marks in English as the exam had gone quite good. Next came Physics. Though for this subject also, my exam had gone quite OK, the marks weren't certainly reflecting that. 69 in the cumulative marks of the Theory Paper and the Practical exam is not too good. Then the moment I took a look at the next subject, my heart was broken. Missing the LETTER marks in Chemistry by just 1 mark was really a huge disappointment. After my exams, I had sincerely believed that if there was any subject in which I could get LETTER marks, it surely had to be Chemistry. But I was proved wrong. I saw that I had obtained 60 marks in the Theory Paper and 19 marks in the Practical exam. The best I remember is that I had successfully taken all the readings and measurements on my Practical exam, but still 1 mark was deducted, keeping me away from the glory of LETTER marks by the smallest margin possible.

Then I turned my eyes towards the next subject which was Computer Science. My heart was beating very hard at that moment. And, there it was! I had obtained 95 in the subject, which I surely did not expect after the exam. But, whether I had obtained the highest marks was yet to be confirmed. Later on, however, I came to know, to my great delight, that yes, it was the highest marks.

The last subject on the mark-sheet was Environmental Science. I had obtained 95 in this subject too. And yes, this was very much expected.

The moment I got my results, I started adding the totals of the best 5 subjects to calculate the Aggregate, as I had my target on mind. 60 + 75 + 69 + 79 + 95 = 378. 378!

I rechecked the total once again to see whether I had really reached that total. And yes, I really had. 378… I thought… 375 was 75%, I had already calculated; that meant I had crossed the barrier of the Star Marks and to my great pleasure I discovered that I had really obtained Star Marks. Oh, what a relief!

All these calculations and observations were going on inside the Principal Sir’s Office. Some formalities were to be completed before I could come outside. I, like every other student was required to collect two certificates from my teachers which would certify that I had passed H.S. from Techno Model School on 2008. Also, I was required to collect the certificate from the H.S. Council. After collecting all these, I went to Nandi Sir, our Physics teacher, who was then the Acting-Principal and he sealed on my certificates with the school-stamp. After sealing on the certificates, he scrutinized my report card. I told him that I could have done much better in the Physics Paper and he admitted that saying that I deserved more marks in Physics. But overall, he said, the marks were quite OK. I took his blessings and came out from the office. My friends were still standing in the queue. On seeing me, they started asking me all sorts of questions. “How was your result, Sayan?”, “Have you obtained 70%?”, “How many LETTER marks have you obtained?” – were some of those questions.

Then came the moment of truth, when I handed over my report card to my mom, who was anxiously waiting outside. Her reaction was quite OK, as if she had been expecting such a result, and why shouldn’t she. So much of hard work had gone into my preparation for the Higher Secondary Examination. There had to be success for me. But things don’t always happen as you have planned, just like as it happened during my Madhyamik Examination. My mom looked quite satisfied, which pleased me greatly.

We didn’t wait at the school for long. I informed my father about my result on my cell phone. I remember on our way home I received phone calls from a few of my relatives, all asking about my result, and understandably so. All my relatives, all my friends love me, they expect me to succeed and excel in life. When success doesn’t come, they are as disappointed as me. I am really blessed to have such relatives and friends. Thank You, God!

On our way back home, I calculated the total marks of the 5 subjects on my mind a number of times, and to my great disbelief, the totals were coming up differently each time and none reached 75%. I was greatly worried because of the fact that I had already informed some of my relatives that I had obtained more than 75% and now if I notice that I had not obtained 75%, even by 1 mark, which I am very good at, you can well understand that my prestige will go to hell. So, I rushed to home and quickly took out my mark-sheet and calculated my total once more. But this time the total did com up correctly and yes, it was 378, which meant that I had really crossed 75%. Relief at last!

That day was definitely one of the most memorable days of my life. After all, I had got what I really deserved. Months of tremendous hard work had gone into the preparation. Though I was confident about performing well, yet there was always a bit of doubt, a bit of fear – whether I would reach 75%. And, after what had happened during Madhyamik, fear was sure to come. But this time, nothing untoward happened. This performance gave me a lot of confidence. It showed that I really belonged to this place, which I think was doubted by somebody. Though my marks were not really very high, yet I was happy, happy because the belief that even I can do something, which had almost vanished after the Madhyamik, was again regained by me.

I was very happy the entire day. Though I don’t remember exactly how I spent the day, one thing that I remember is that on that very day there was an IPL match between the Kolkata Knight Riders and the Rajasthan Royals at the Eden Gardens, which I went to watch. Kolkata Knight Riders did lose the match, putting a black mark on an otherwise bright day. Really, had they won the match it would have been a perfect day. But nevertheless, it was a great day which had already put a permanent impression on my heart.

Though the result was mine and due to my hard work, credit must be given to my teachers, friends and family-members, without whose support this day would have been an impossibility. Special mention must be made of my parents who did not lose hope and faith on me and were always beside me during my times of need. They had the belief on me, that I could really perform and I really felt great that I was able to give respect to their patience.

Thank you everybody, my teachers, friends, family-members! Thank You God for giving me this opportunity to perform. Finally, I thank you for going through this post, which I have written with intense emotion, as it describes a day very close to my heart.